percivalthegale: (angst)
percivalthegale ([personal profile] percivalthegale) wrote2009-09-01 02:07 pm
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Why?

My shoulder is no better, but no worse. As long as I have Borus to assist me with my armor in the morning, I can still patrol. I just hope any work I have to do as part of it doesn't strain the injury, or reveal that I should still be resting. I don't want to rest any longer. I need to be useful.

I feel as though I should have stayed at Brass Castle. I may have returned to patrol, but that's about the only positive thing I can say about the last week. People are upset. Fights are breaking out. And to add insult to injury, the castle's magic has sent Sir Wyatt away. I saw it with my own eyes, and...

He was such a decent fellow. He was always kind to me, giving out advice or simply buying me a drink. And, just like the Flame Champion, he was gone before being brought here, so that means he is... Well. I should see if Lady Chris needs anything. I assume she knows...surely someone told her already. He was her father, she needs to know.

How does one remember someone who already died, and has a grave marker in Vinay del Zexay as well as memorials in the Grasslands?

On top of that, I nearly had to arrest Seed and Rahal for getting into a fight. I don't know what's wrong, and Seed is busy with his companion Culgan so I can't ask him. I don't know what I would do if I could...I don't know if I have the patience to deal with personal things right now. Sir Euram is upset by an arrival, his main rival I suppose. I don't know everything about the situation but I gather it isn't good. Troy sailed away in the spring and never returned, he might have ended up taken back to his own time as well.

It never changes. Just when I make friends they leave, or die, or change, and I'm left with no one. Well, that isn't entirely accurate. I have Borus. But his relationship with Lady Chris is his primary focus right now, and I don't begrudge him that. He's waited a long time. I won't interfere.

Yes. I should have stayed at Brass Castle. But I can't just up and leave now. The castle is full of Harmonian merchants. I got no response from sending word to the Council, and as far as I know we've received no orders regarding their presence, but I have to be here to augment the castle guard. This many people could inspire trouble regardless of the innocence of their intentions.

I suppose it's time to bury myself in work. That way I won't have time to notice my loneliness and dwell on my grief.

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